Philippians 4:13

I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

I need this verse today. Yesterday was not a very good day. I was lazy, and my day was very unproductive. I wasted God's time. I invested in things that brought very short term pleasure, instead of long term and eternal. And because of that, at the end of the day, I felt 'empty'. I realize that I was depending on my own strength, rather than God's.

I am reminded of a verse that I like a lot:
Romans 7:14-25 and 8:1

14We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. 15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

21So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me. 22For in my inner being I delight in God's law; 23but I see another law at work in the members of my body, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within my members. 24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25Thanks be to God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God's law, but in the sinful nature a slave to the law of sin. 1Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus!

I feel like this in a few areas of my life. No matter how hard I try, I keeping doing things that I don't want to do. I keep messing things up for myself and everyone around me. But there is my problem: no matter how hard I try. I can't do it by myself. I need God.

I don't have a good excuse for today to be another bad day. I'm praying that God will help me keep focused on what I need to do. And that He'll give me a servant's heart, because I have to go do something later today that I really don't feel like doing....