October 2, 2008


My life is so confusing right now.

It seems is easy, yet incredibly hard.
Happy, but sad.
Like it's going by so slowly, but also so quickly.
Like I'm too young to grow up, yet I'm growing up and I'm still a kid.
Like school is all that I have time for, but I have so many other things to do.
I want to have a life beyond school, but school is really important.
I want to grow up, but I don't.
I'm starting to look at colleges and my future, but I don't seem ready.
I don't know why I want to grow up, when I don't.
It was so nice being 4 years old, with hardly a care in the world.....why would I want to leave that?
Yet I do.
But not yet.
But I have to.

I have so many things going through my head.
Yet, I don't need to worry.
Why? Because God is my boss. He is in control.

Life is full of decisions...
Some are really hard decisions,
while others are minor.
Decisions aren't always fun.
But they're necessary.

For some reason it's helpful to talk things out.
idk why, but it is.

There is so much more I could say, but I gotta go do school.....
school isn't always bad
I do enjoy it sometimes
actually a lot of the time.
But sometimes, I just get tired of it....
Oh well, that's life I guess, lol!


Matt said...

Welcome to the world of being a teenager.
^chances are, you won't understand what I mean by that, lol

Emily said...

lol, I've been a teen longer that you have.

Matt said...

only 2 and a half months.