I feel bad...

I know I haven't posted a lot recently. I guess I just don't feel like talking about myself or my life. I really want to make some deep, meaningful posts. But, whenever I sit down to make a blog post, I have 'blogger's block' or something =P But let me think for a second here.

God has really spoke to me this week about my future. I have never been worried or stressed about it, but it's kind of cool to actually see God possibly revealing some stuff to me. I have really been unsure as to what career to pursue. I just have always felt like I have so many interests and didn't really feel a really strong calling to one thing. I don't know if I could pick one thing I'm super passionate about, other than God. Well, God has shown me that it's not what I do, but how it serves Him that really matters. I feel like He has shown me that my passions are actions and services, rather than something physical like 'music' or 'animals'. Yes, I do adore those two things, but I don't know if it would be a passion. So anyhow, what I feel like God has shown me is that whatever I do, it'll include: caring, encouraging, helping/serving and challenging. Obviously, there are a lot of forms of all of that. And i don't know what form that'll be for me. I am just excited to see what God has in store :)

Beach!!

Ok, so this past Saturday we left our home to go stay at Holden beach for a week. Right now, I am sitting in my beach house and thought I should give a little update. The beach has been gorgeous, I have spent a lot of time in the water and on the beach. Some of my cousins are here with us, and we're having an awesome time ^_^ I have also had some awesome times with the Lord. He has revealed himself to me in some amazing ways and it feels so awesome. I might make a more in depth post on that later.

We have went out in the ocean while the sun has been setting the past few nights. That is absolutely breathtaking beautiful. We've found a lot more shells than we normally do. I will be sure to post some pictures when I get back =)

Well, I guess I better go now. I'm going to go build a sandcastle(ohhhh yesss =P). Peace!!

This is what I want[and am trying to] to live by...

1 Timothy 4:12 Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.

1 Timothy 6:11- But you, man of God, flee from all this, and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance and gentleness.

2 Timothy 2:22- Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18- Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

1 Thessalonians 5:11- Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.

Colossians 3:1 and 12
1Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. 12Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.

Philippians 4:8- Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

Philippians 2:3- Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves.

2 Corinthians 12:10- That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Mark 10:43-44- Not so with you. Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be slave of all.

Oh dear God help me...

What have I been up to?

I'm sorry for not posting a lot recently. Anyhow, let me type a quick update. I got my wisdom teeth out a couple of weeks ago. The recovery was not too bad. Then, there was the youth day. That was really awesome. I had a fun time with friends and some great teaching. I got to see some people that I don't normally get to spend time with, like Stephanie and Aly, so that was nice =) Oh, I got in to my first college class. That starts today.

hmmm, what else? I have just generally been busy with life. We've had a couple of movie meetings, Bible study, Kung Fu Panda with friends, AMP's awesome concert. I know I must be forgetting something. Oh well, I just need to post more regularly ;)

Oh and I finally got a facebook. But I promise, that is not why I haven't posted very much... My life had just been crazy =)

I wanna make a deeper post. Let me think on that and see what I come up with! ;)

random btw, these are my favorite smilies: =) and =P they are the most fun, haha

Ok, since you're probably wondering...

Alright, I guess I should give an explanation right now about my last post. Thanks to all of you that have been praying for me. Basically, on the 4th, our dog bit my little sister Sophie. It wasn't that bad, however he did break the skin and all. 6th, my parents told us that we had to put our dog, Bentley down. We had to put him down because he apparently had this 'mental disease' that made him get these sudden bouts of rage, even though 99% of the time he is the sweetest dog ever. This was totally hard for me because Bentley was like my little brother and I loved him, so much. Most people might not understand that. But, you see, I have never lost someone I was really close to before. I haven't experienced a grandparent's death, etc. So it was one of the hardest things I had gone through....

Anyhow, by the grace of God, I am doing fine now. Actually even the day that this happened, God really met me and it was awesome.

I guess that's it. Thanks for your concern and prayers for me :)

explanation coming soon about the last post. Oh, and I promise I haven't abandoned my blog ;)

Please pray....

I am going through the absolute hardest thing I have ever had to go through in my entire life. I can't even talk about it right now. Just please pray for me and my family.

Jessi

Happy birthday to Jessi =D

ahhh! Long post......

I feel like making a super long post. Over the past few days, I have been busy and unable to post. Yet, I've have lots of ideas for posts.

First off, I am so filled with joy today. I feel so incredibly blessed right now..... I'm just so content where God has me in life. And that is an amazing feeling. I read this quote today by John Piper that I really liked: "God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him". Ah, what a great reminder for me. Being satisfied in God alone is SO important if we want God to be glorified.

Second... I really want to know this.
-What was the most life changing thing/event that ever happened to you/that you ever expierenced?
-Tell me about who challanges you the most in your life. Also, I want to know what is it about this person that challenges you?
-Who in your life do you look up to the most and want to be the most like?
-Do you have a verse in the Bible that you consider your 'life verse'?

I had more, but I forgot them....

Thirdly, I have really been pondering how I want to grow this year. I am a good multi-tasker in someways, but a terrible one in others. Spiritually, I don't grow very much if I split too many ways, with too many 'focuses'.....because then, I loose a main focus. haha, that might not make sense....but anyways.... I have had these lyrics stuck in my head:

"Love, love at the core
So much more than what we're living for
We want love, we want love, love at the core
So much more of this life that we're reaching for
We want love..."

I want love and purity to be at the core of my life. I can't have this 'life I'm reaching for'(growing to be more like Christ) if I am not striving for purity in everything and love in everything. If my love for God defines everything in my life, then won't God be honored there? If totally pure love was at the core of every Christian, think what an impact that would make!

Fourthly(hehe). I have come to realize that one way I am most challenged spiritually is when someone claims I challenge them spiritually. It's confusing, but true.....

Fifth. Yes, this is going to sound shallow after all of my other ramblings above. But I REALLY want a facebook. I'm not obsessing over the idea.... I just want one. =P

6th! I am so happy it is now August, because that means that caregroup is tomorrow. =D [wow, how can it be August already?]

Seventh. I am almost done =P ;)

8th.....Please be praying for me next week...if you think about it. I am getting my wisdom teeth out this Tuesday(4th). I'm not exactly looking forward to it. =/

Ok, I'm done. If you read this whole post, then maybe I will bake you something with lots of sugar in it. =D Would that make you happy? =P haha...

Good night y'all. haha =P